Day 9 "Depressed And Racing Thoughts"

Last night I got to bed pretty late, I just wasn’t tired.  It was after 4 before I went to bed.  I did manage to get up on time this morning an take my pills. My psychiatrist's nurse called and told me my thyroid is high and that my glucose was a little high as well.  I told her I had no insurance and she’s going to try and get me a doctor and put a note in my file for my therapist that I need a case worker.  I have been depressed all day because I’m scared about my health.  I just want to get better and have a normal life.  In addition to all this, my car is broke at a friend's house and she informed me that she backed in to the car this morning because she forgot it was there.  I have nothing and that car was given to me by my deceased Father.  Besides not being able to afford to fix it my friend backs in to it and says that it’s just a car.  She’s right in theory and I know that she only scraped the back bumper but if I did that to her car she would explode.  I just am having a bad week and it’s like everything that could happen is happening all at the same time.  My Mom has been much more understanding and I feel like she’s starting to understand what I’ve been going through.  I went to the drive in tonight with my cousin and I ate a ton of junk food because I’m so hungry and just depressed.  I just hope that God is looking down on me and will help me through all of this.  All of my drama isn’t much too some people but It’s very overwhelming to me.   Anyway, I’m done typing for now and will be back tomorrow night.