Day 74 "Stable Day, Back On Diet"

Today has been an over all pretty good day.  I wasn't happy nor was I very sad.  I have followed my diet for three days in a row and that has made me feel a little bit better about myself.  I had started losing weight in February and up to being diagnosed bipolar 1 in May I had lost 33 pounds.  I have always been heavy and losing this weight was and is a big deal for me.

After I was diagnosed as bipolar 1 and started taking medications my weight began to fluctuate which caused me a lot of concern.  I was so upset that I might gain all the weight back that I almost didn't go through with my treatment.  I've always wanted to be skinnier and I was finally on my way there and then bipolar happened.  Well, if I don't follow a treatment plan my life is over.  I definitely won't be able to hold a job and I'll never be able to get approved for SSDI.  So the only choice for me is to learn how to deal with it.

My diet isn't perfect but it's better than no diet at all.  I don't drink any kind of soft drinks and drink about a gallon of water a day.  This is good for weight loss plus it helps keep my body from becoming dehydrated which could cause Lithium toxicity.  I'm not a big fan of vegetables so I drink a can of low sodium V8 juice every day which counts for two servings of vegetables.  I also have tried  both low sodium corn and kidney beans from a can and like them as well.  I also eat a lot chicken, turkey, and tuna fish.  Once in a while I'll buy red meat but I make sure it's very lean. 

I may never be skinny and I may never be cured of my bipolar but I'm going to do whatever I can to control both.  If I don't control them I'm setting myself up for failure.