Day 19 "Had A Hypomanic Night"

Last night I tried going to sleep at a normal time but it didn’t happen.  I thought the Klonopin was supposed to kind of knock me out.  I think it eases my anxiety somewhat but I’m still kind of on edge.  So it does do a little for the anxiety but it really doesn’t make me drowsy.  I didn’t fall asleep till after 3am. 

Today I felt a little like my old self.  I’ve been taking the Lithium as prescribed but today I was very hypersexual and ended up looking at porn half the night.  I have the attention span of a turtle when I get like that, it’s really weird.  So today I’ve been a little depressed, had some anxiety ,and have had some hypomania.  Can you say mixed episode?  Why can’t it be one or the other.  Why does it have to be both?  I just have to stay focused and keep on my treatment.  Everything is going to work out I hope. 

I did manage to get a doctors appointment on July 16^th at the hospital clinic to get my thyroid and sugar addressed.  I sure hope  that everything is ok and that I’m going to be ok.  I have a long road ahead of me but I just am trying to focus on the end result of being in control of this illness and getting to enjoy life a little.