Day 18 "Had A Rapid Change In Mood"

Last night my sleep was restless.  I got up and got on the computer for a little while to relax but it wasn’t happening.  I even sat outside for a spell and while it was nice I still had a hard time falling asleep.  Once I did fall asleep I had some pretty crazy dreams.  I dreamed that I lost control of my car on 77 going around a turn in the winter and drove off the road and ended up on someone’s property.  In the dream once it was daylight the weather was warm.  Anyway I was able to drive the car away but the people that owned the property said they wouldn’t call the cops if we came back and cleaned the red paint that was all over their windows.  

My brother, who I don't see very often put a ceiling fan up that I bought over four years ago.  I did have a little meltdown because I didn’t have the right size bulb and looked in the manual and went to wally world and bought what the manual said and it was wrong as well.  I was so angry that I wanted to smash something.  My mood changed so quickly and I couldn’t control it for a minute.  That used to happen to me at work all the time when changes would occur. 

I started filling out my SSDI application out online and theres a lot too it.  I think I will be going to Social Security next week with required documents and to go over what I’ve submitted.  Anyway, I’m done for the night and going to go look at some cars on ebay…lol  I’ve done that just about everyday even when Im really hypersexual and want sex.  Goodnight!