Day 87 "Had A Good Day And A Reason To Be Optimistic"

Today has been a good overall day for me.  I saw my therapist and she contacted my nurse practitioner and had my dosage of Seroquel reduced from 600mg XR to 400mg XR because of the way it was effecting my vision.  Today we also talked a lot about my future and what I should do.  She said that I'm making very good progress and that I should definitely appeal the denial I received from Social Security when I applied for SSDI because I have nothing to lose.

She also said that if I'm still doing this well in two months she's going to refer me to a job coach within their office.  I asked if this was someone that would accompany me to a job and assess me and she said no.  She said the job coach would help me write my resume and coach me through the interview process.  He would help me to be able to explain the gaps in employment I have. 

My therapist said that since I've picked up my nephew from school since preschool and helped watch him and his little sister that I put that I was a caregiver on my resume.  I also told her about how I take my Mom to all her doctor's appointments and go with her to do the grocery shopping and she said I could use that as well.  Furthermore, last year I drove my sister to and from her job for almost for months in addition to picking her son up from school. She said I sound like a caregiver and should use that if i can.

So I haven't had a traditional job but I 've spent considerable amount of time taking care of others.  The fact that I'm doing laundry, cooking, cleaning, grocery shopping, and making sure my Mom takes her pills is a job within itself.  The fact that I 've spent three years getting my nephew from school and helping take care his little sister has also been a job in itself.  I just need to learn how to put the proper spin on it in an interview. 

Today was exciting for me because somebody actually told me I was improving and could probably handle a full time job in the near future.  I'm going to keep my fingers crossed and do everything that's asked of me.  It would feel so good if I could be able to work and support myself.  I especially never want to be in debt to anybody!