When I woke up this morning I was still having racing thoughts and was angry about everything. I was able to smile and talk upbeat to my therapist but I was just really angry about a lot of things. Why does life have to be so difficult. Why can't it be the same for everyone. Well' I already know the answer to that. It would just be so nice to feel normal for once. In any event I talked through what I was angry about with my therapist and she gave me some handouts about coping when your angry. I'm going to read through them and see if they can help me any.
Tonight I had a really nice conversation with an old friend whom I haven't seen in a long time. We talked for almost an hour and a half and it felt like we talked for just about fifteen minutes. The time went so quickly. I can't even tell you all what we talked about but it was so nice and made me feel like I have a life. All the anger I was having earlier in the day was gone. Oh, I forget that my friend did invite me to go to an auction next Friday night with him and his sister. Nobody outside my family has asked me to do anything for years. Anyway, I just felt great after our phone call and am so excited about getting together next Friday. I'm so happy to be able to talk about my friend that I'm having a cry moment.
I’m a 46 year old man who’s been dealing with Bipolar my entire life. It wasn’t until 2013 that I was diagnosed and this blog is my story. As you’ll see there’s been many lapses in my posting but I’m going to try and get back with it. I’ve had a lot of trouble during my lapses but I continue to remain optimistic about my bipolar hence the title Optimistic Bipolar.
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