Day 223 "Was Very Down Today"

Today was a very down day for me.  I was in bed most of the day today.  I slept for over sixteen hours and only got out of bed to use the bathroom.  I never saw the light of day today.  I wanted to get out of bed earlier but I couldn't bring myself to do it.  It was like something inside of me was holding me back.  My mood was in a down state all day.  All I thought about was the uphill battle I have to face this year with my bipolar, general health, and weight.  It was all overwhelming me and by staying under the covers I could avoid it all.  

Tonight, I went to my cousin's house to see if I could get out of my funk.  I found out shortly after arriving that an old mutual friend of ours had died over the summer from brain cancer.  She was only 43 years old. Age has nothing to do with when your times up and this reminds me that death can occur at anytime.  Neither my cousin or I had seen her in over ten years but hearing of her passing brought back a flood of memories. Rest in peace Lori!  

I'm going to put new sheets on my bed tonight and try and get a good night sleep.  I have been sleeping  on top of the same sheets for over five months now.  That probably makes most people sick but I just can't bring myself to change to them on a regular basis.  I try to make my bed everyday but changing the sheets is the last thing I think about doing when I have so much other stuff I need to do.  I just need a change and I feel that doing this will help me sleep a little better.  Goodnight to everyone and here's to a better tomorrow.