Last night I did not sleep well and like the last few nights ended up on the computer looking for sex. I don' understand why when I get stressed my mind goes to sex even though I don't want it too. However, I know it's all about immediate gratification and sex could give me that. It's much like binging and purging in the sense that I can at like a total pig, then throw it up and feel like I got to consume everything I wanted without the calories. However, I do know there are consequences to everything and the the consequence I suffer with most is my anger when I don't get sex or if I binge and purge. One minute I'm happy because of what I'm doing and the next I'm angry and want to jump off a bridge. It's a vicious cycle and I just want to get past it.
I called my nurse practitioner's nurse today and left a message for her telling her of my symptoms and I'm hoping she calls me back on Monday with good news. Ideally I would like to up my dosage of Lithium especially since I'm on the low end of a therapeutic scale. I don't understand why all of a sudden this hypomania has happened but and why the Lithium isn't taking care of it. All I can say is that maybe the Abilify causes the Lithium to be a little less effective. I'm not going to pretend to know but just wait and see what the nurse finds out. I hope tomorrow things start to calm down.
I’m a 46 year old man who’s been dealing with Bipolar my entire life. It wasn’t until 2013 that I was diagnosed and this blog is my story. As you’ll see there’s been many lapses in my posting but I’m going to try and get back with it. I’ve had a lot of trouble during my lapses but I continue to remain optimistic about my bipolar hence the title Optimistic Bipolar.
Is sounds as though you are getting closer to a balance with the two medications. Perhaps as the lithium dosage remains the same, your body may require increased dosages to get the same affect. That might explain the increased hypomania.
ReplyDeleteWell, muy nurse practitioner said the Abilify was causing me mania and stopped it and started me on a newer drug with less side effects. She also upped the dosage of Lithium I take to 1500mg a day. I go for a blood draw this coming week to see where I'm at. She had raised it just two weeks ago to 1200mg from 900mg and the blood draw I had then showed I was at the low end of therapeutic levels. It'll be curious to see where my Lithium level is now. I just want more stability and less hypomania/mania.
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