Day 117 "Another Lousy Day"

I slept OK last night and was able to get up with no problems which is the best part about today.  I have felt off all day.  My head hasn't felt right and even though I was wide awake I still could have went back to bed.  I especially felt today like nothing in my life is ever going to improve.  I know that I may be approved for disability down the road but it's never going to be enough to live comfortably on.  I feel like I will always have to rely on others for support and that makes me so upset just to think about it.  I wish I could get my mind on a positive track because this is getting so old.  I would just like to have one day where I could relax and not worry about my future but I don't see that happening.  In any event, I'm going to now go to bed and hope for a better day tomorrow.