I want to take a minute and wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving. Thanksgiving is a time for me when the family comes together to commemorate the the first Thanksgiving that the Pilgrims had after the first harvest in 1621. I'm not big on holidays anymore and have a lot of anxiety over them but I work really hard to make sure I'm a part of the holiday. I have it in my head that at as time moves forward there are going to be people who aren't going to be here anymore and that's the driving force behind me attending the holidays.
This year has been a really tough year for me and I'm really thankful that I'm alive. I started being treated for my bipolar with medications in June and it's been very hard. I feel much more stable now than I did but I still have days where I wonder what I'm doing this for. I feel so horrible and have so many side effects because of the medications that I wonder which is worst. However, I made a commitment to give treatment a try or one year and I just can't quit. Because of bipolar I've quit a lot of things in my past and I feel that if I don't stick with my treatment I'll be letting bipolar win.
I’m a 46 year old man who’s been dealing with Bipolar my entire life. It wasn’t until 2013 that I was diagnosed and this blog is my story. As you’ll see there’s been many lapses in my posting but I’m going to try and get back with it. I’ve had a lot of trouble during my lapses but I continue to remain optimistic about my bipolar hence the title Optimistic Bipolar.
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