Last night I got home from dropping my aunt off at her house and I was exhausted. I thought I could stay up a while and look at some email but I was mistaken. I laid on my bed with the intention of only being there for a few minutes and the next thing I new it was 3 in the morning. I then got up and got on my bed clothes and slept until 9 this morning. I slept a total of ten hours. The worst part is that all day I've felt like I could go back to bed and feel like I'm dragging. There just doesn't seem to be enough time in the day for me to accomplish all the things I need to do. However, this next week I have a personal goal to take a little time for myself and do a better job at caring for myself. I've been doing a great job of making sure everyone gets what they need but neglecting my own needs.
My mood today has been both good and bad. As I've stated before I cycle back and forth between highs and lows more now than ever. Today I started out pretty happy with no major complications
and was OK till it was time to go and pick up my nephew. I love him to death and it isn't his fault but I just got really angry and depressed. I started cussing and saying things that were inappropriate. I'm glad I was alone because I wouldn't want my nephew to hear the things that came out of my mouth.
Anyway, today was not another good day for me but I'm going to cope the best I can and try to get by the best I can.
I’m a 46 year old man who’s been dealing with Bipolar my entire life. It wasn’t until 2013 that I was diagnosed and this blog is my story. As you’ll see there’s been many lapses in my posting but I’m going to try and get back with it. I’ve had a lot of trouble during my lapses but I continue to remain optimistic about my bipolar hence the title Optimistic Bipolar.
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