Hello All, It is a really warm Wednesday here in Ohio and all I wanted to do was sleep. I got into bed around 3am this morning and ended up sleeping until a little after 5 in the afternoon. I did manage to get my pills this morning but if I wouldn't have had an alarm set I would've been screwed. However, I did forget to take my Klonopin this afternoon and it didn't hit me until late in the evening when my head started to hurt. I was having a little bit of withdrawal from the Klonopin. So I took it and within an hour I was fine.
Years ago while in a manic phase I got hooked on Xanax bars and bought like a hundred of them and was breaking them in half to take for sleep. Well, after about five months I just decided to quit because I had built up a tolerance. I went through the most horrible withdrawal ever. My body ached, I had brain zaps, and I had the most horrible anxiety ever. I thought I was going to die. I got on the Internet and and after reading about benzodiazapines I learned that you have to taper off them. So, I bought a bunch more of the bars and begin a tapering off that lasted about two months. Anyway, I promised myself I would never abuse a benzodiazapine again.
In any event, it's getting late and I'm just plain tired, Goodnight!
I’m a 46 year old man who’s been dealing with Bipolar my entire life. It wasn’t until 2013 that I was diagnosed and this blog is my story. As you’ll see there’s been many lapses in my posting but I’m going to try and get back with it. I’ve had a lot of trouble during my lapses but I continue to remain optimistic about my bipolar hence the title Optimistic Bipolar.
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