Well, I woke up at about 11 this morning made something to eat and then went outside to weed the yard. I was ok but I moved very slowly, was irritable, very tired, and I hurt all over. I laid down for a nap around 3 and got up at 6. After dinner I helped again in the yard and this time I wanted to get things done and did a lot. I was very sore, irritable, and having a hard time concentrating. Along with that I was thinking a lot about sex and really was hypersexual. I didn’t place any ads but I did look through the personals on Craigslist for like two hours ready to go if I could find someone. It’s 1130 and I’m going to get off here and head to bed. That’s probably the best place for me.
I’m a 46 year old man who’s been dealing with Bipolar my entire life. It wasn’t until 2013 that I was diagnosed and this blog is my story. As you’ll see there’s been many lapses in my posting but I’m going to try and get back with it. I’ve had a lot of trouble during my lapses but I continue to remain optimistic about my bipolar hence the title Optimistic Bipolar.
Saturday, July 13, 2013
Day 48 "Today Was All Over The Place"
I went to bed crying and felt worthless. I kind of felt like what’s the point in
living. I wasn’t going to kill myself
but there have been a lot of times the past month that I’ve had those
thoughts. I went to bed at 4 am and
cried myself to sleep. I really wanted
to be near my Dad. He had a knack for
accepting whatever I put in front of him good or bad. His death taught me how to be a better
person and really try to do the best you can do.
Well, I woke up at about 11 this morning made something to eat and then went outside to weed the yard. I was ok but I moved very slowly, was irritable, very tired, and I hurt all over. I laid down for a nap around 3 and got up at 6. After dinner I helped again in the yard and this time I wanted to get things done and did a lot. I was very sore, irritable, and having a hard time concentrating. Along with that I was thinking a lot about sex and really was hypersexual. I didn’t place any ads but I did look through the personals on Craigslist for like two hours ready to go if I could find someone. It’s 1130 and I’m going to get off here and head to bed. That’s probably the best place for me.
Well, I woke up at about 11 this morning made something to eat and then went outside to weed the yard. I was ok but I moved very slowly, was irritable, very tired, and I hurt all over. I laid down for a nap around 3 and got up at 6. After dinner I helped again in the yard and this time I wanted to get things done and did a lot. I was very sore, irritable, and having a hard time concentrating. Along with that I was thinking a lot about sex and really was hypersexual. I didn’t place any ads but I did look through the personals on Craigslist for like two hours ready to go if I could find someone. It’s 1130 and I’m going to get off here and head to bed. That’s probably the best place for me.
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