2006 Year Review Age 34

 

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2006

January

• Job Promotion, Seasonal Trim-A-Home to Part Time Sales Associate, Columbus,Ohio

July

• Job Ended, Kaufmann's, Better Opportunities, Pittsburg, PA 
• Started New Job, Finlay Fine Jewelry, Branch Manager (Kaufmann's/Macy's), Pittsburg, PA 

August – December

• I began working long hours at my new job as the Fine jewelry Manager. 
• I usually worked two to three hours over my scheduled eight hours every shift.
• I began needing less and less sleep and was only getting maybe three hours at most. 
• There was several times where I didn’t sleep for three and four days.
• There were a few instances where I would stay up all night because I was having racing thoughts about everything going on at work, home, and anything else I could throw into the mix. 
• The racing thoughts just wouldn’t stop.
• I sometimes had accelerated speech and there was other times when my speech was labored.
• I was very hypersexual and looked at porn all the time and wanted to have sex really bad even though it didn’t happen. 
• I felt on top of the world and liked the high feeling I had when it was present.
• I was constantly angry towards the end of October because my boss wasn’t helping me more at work (like she said she would) so I started trying to get out of work and called off a bunch of times. 
• I wanted to scream at her and felt very superior to her…she was an idiot.
• In December I was tired of it all and decided that I was going to take a required work day off and still mark myself in the system as there. 
• The next day I was met at the door and terminated for time theft.

December

• Job Ended, Finlay Fine Jewelry (Kaufmann's/Macy's), Terminated/Time Theft, Pittsburg, PA 

December 2006 – October 2007

• Didn’t have any energy.
• I started using marijuana again but smoked very little during this time and only used if someone else offered it to me.
• I felt like my life was over.
• I had no hope for my future.
• My speech was labored a lot.
• I had a lot of anxiety and it was aggravated by noise, television, animals, other people.
• I lost interest in things I enjoyed like photography, biking, and driving.
• All I wanted to do was sleep and be alone.
• I cut all ties with friends and isolated myself.
• I didn’t have much of an appetite.
• I feared my own death and thought about it a lot. 
• Sometimes I would have racing thoughts about dying.
• I was scared to ride in the car because of getting in an accident and dying.