2003 Year Review Age 31

 

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2003

January

• Job Ended, Kay Bee Toys, Terminated/Harmful Conduct.

February - March

• Saw my previous psychiatrist and started back on Effexor because I had a crash and burn in January that cost me my job @ K*B Toys and I was very depressed again like I was before I ever started taking Effexor.

March

• Started New Job, Sheetz, Shift Manager

March

• Job Ended, Sheetz, Quit/No Notice

June

• Started New Job, Big Lots, ASM Merchandising,Coulimbus, Ohio

July-October

• Stopped Taking Effexor because I had a new job and was feeling very good again.
• I felt like I was on top of the world.

July 2003 – January 2005 

• Overall mood felt great.  I was on a high for over a year and I didn’t want it to end.  I always felt like the life of the party.
• Didn’t sleep for days on end and when I did it was usually only for three to four hours at most. 
• I was always hypersexual looking at porn and thinking about sex.  I thought about sex all the time night and day.
• Occasionally would drink beer maybe once a week, sometimes I wouldn’t have any….it did not mix well with marijuana. 
• Started using marijuana again most everyday consuming anywhere from three to four bowls up to two to three joints. 
• It was something I did when I wasn’t at work and had heavier consumption on days off. 
• I only l liked smoking to the point where my brain felt stable and it helped me to not binge and purge.
• I was easily agitated and angered by the littlest of things and could blow at the drop of a hat.
• I didn’t drink a lot but was spending around $35-40 a week on pot.
• I became friends with a bunch of new people when I started working at Big Lots and we would get together just about every night and hang out for hour’s sometimes smoking marijuana.
• There were several times where I went to work the next day in the same clothes I had left in the day before because I had never went home. 
• I had always been made fun of and didn’t have many friends and for the first time I had like three good friends.
• In December – January 2005 I was very depressed and slept anytime I wasn’t working.  I was sleeping anywhere from 12 to fifteen hours a day. 
• Darkness was my friend.
• In early January 2005 I was very hypersexual and met a guy I had spent all night looking around on the internet for.

August

• Job Transfer, Big Lots , ASM Merchandising to ASM Operations, Columbus, Ohio