2002 Year Review Age 30

 

 

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2002

August - November

• Stopped taking Effexor. 
• Stopped smoking marijuana until July 2003
• I felt in control and my mood was very good. 
• I felt like I could do anything.
• I was very hypersexual and looking at a lot of porn on the computer.

October 2002 – January 27, 2003

• I was very hypersexual during this time looking at porn and thinking about sex all I could.
• In mid November I was informed that my store location would be closing and that I was not to tell anyone till after the Thanksgiving holiday.
• Through the month of December I worked 70 – 90 hour work weeks.
• Through the month of January I worked seven days a week 12 hour days. 
• I was working long hours in my store and then spending a lot of time on the road transferring merchandise between stores.
• I was only sleeping three to four hours a night at most.
• There were times that I went for four or five days without any sleep.
• I was obsessed with my weight during this time and binged and purged just about everyday.
• I was very down during this period and felt like my life was ending sometimes.
• I was very irritable and could become angry pretty easily. 
• There were times when my speech was very accelerated.
• I was both depressed and manic when my store finally closed at the end of January.  
• I was sad that I had to let some people go.
• I was sad that my sore was going to be gone.
• I was pissed at my boss because he said he was going to help me close the store and didn’t.
• I was angry because when he did help me it was the last day and everything was done.
• Me and my ASM would leave each other nasty voicemails on the store voice mail sometimes.
• The voicemails were funny at first but became more sarcastic and rude towards others.
• The last two messages that me and my ASM left for each other accidentally went to all stores. Well my ASM's was accidental. 
• I was well aware of what I did and slept very good that night.
• We both said horrible nasty things about coworkers and my boss
• We were both fired for harmful conduct