Day 274 "The Kind of Anxiety I Had Today"

Today my mood started off great. I was going to the Dentist to get a tooth pulled and thought everything would be great. I've had an infected tooth since January and have been on antibiotics several times since. Anyway the Dentist was very gentle and numbed me up but I kept telling him that my tongue wasn't numb. So after hitting me three different times with novocaine he said I was ready. He took his pliers and started pulling and twisting. I obviously didn't have all the infection out because the pain was horrible. I yelled for him to stop four or five times before he quit. He then told me that there was still infection in the tooth and that I would have to go on antibiotic and come back in a week to resume. I have to get this done and will go back but I've never shook so bad and been in so much pain. The anxiety I'm feeling about going back next week is horrible. I'm having horrible visions of what could go wrong and it just sends me over the edge. I need to figure out why I have so much anxiety and deal with it. There's all kinds of school of thought on how to deal with anxiety and make it better. Well, I think in this case the anxiety happened because of a situation beyond my control. I think the best thing for me to do is to try and forget about today with some meditation and take the new antibiotic as directed. Then when I go to the Dentist I need to do a little meditation when i'm in the chair. I think this will help me to get past the anxiety and hopefully not flip out. Another option would be for me to make sure I take my Klonopin about an hour before I go in to the office. I'm just hoping this next time around will be a success. Wish me luck!