This is the first time in a long time where I don't feel depressed and like I want to curl up in a dark room and hide from everyone. I feel steady and am not stressed out. I have some medication issues that still have to be worked out because of I’ve had some side effects and am hypomanic but overall I’m feeling better than I did in the summer.
However, I’m sick and pretty much want to stay in bed all day. I have a light fever, headache, coughing and really achy. I think maybe I have a seasonal thing because I always seem to get a bug right around the time the weather changes. It never fails; when the seasons change I get a bug of some sort. At this point I’m looking forward to getting over this cold I have and getting on with my life.
Tomorrow I see Sharon, my nurse practitioner, to go over my Lithium results. We are also going to discuss my current drug cocktail. I feel the Ablilify has caused me to become manic especially since my dose of Lithium was raised. The Abilify has also caused me to have a slight tremor in my left hand and restless leg syndrome. I can’t sit still sometimes and it drives me insane. Now that my Lithium has been raised I want to know why I’m hypomanic so much? I don’t have an answer for that yet but will hopefully get that tomorrow. Finally, the Klonopin is OK but I feel like it’s doing nothing for me. I have a lot of anxiety, have been crying a lot, and been very angry and irritable. Is there another benzodiazepine that might work better? Hopefully I’ll get an answer tomorrow for that question as well. For now I’m going to bed and I will give an update tomorrow when the appointment is over.
I’m a 46 year old man who’s been dealing with Bipolar my entire life. It wasn’t until 2013 that I was diagnosed and this blog is my story. As you’ll see there’s been many lapses in my posting but I’m going to try and get back with it. I’ve had a lot of trouble during my lapses but I continue to remain optimistic about my bipolar hence the title Optimistic Bipolar.
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