Not much has changed since yesterday. I still have restless legs, a slight tremor in my left hand, I drool because of the Bell's palsy, and I continue to be hypomanic even though my lithium dose was raised. I also have been really moody and really blew up on my Mom tonight and she knows how to press my buttons.
I feel like I my Mom and sister run my life. I do whatever they want basically but I find myself resenting both of them for all the stuff they ask of me. The part that really bothers is that they usually just decide what I'm going to do and and then let me know. I've tried setting boundaries and rules that basically request that they run things past past me or ask before scheduling me to do something. I've asked this at least a dozen times but they keep doing what they do. It just annoys the crap out of me.
I asked my Mom tonight what would happen if something were to happen to me or I have an appointment what my sister would do and she got really angry and said that my sister had backup if she needed it. Well, I've never heard of any backup, I'm it. Then my Mom continued and said that families are supposed to stick together and help one another. She's told me that my brothers and sister will take care of me when I'm older If I need them to. I just can't accept that statement because all my siblings know I'm having a rough time right now and none of them have offered me a helping hand. As a matter of fact I feel like they ignore me now more than ever.
I’m a 46 year old man who’s been dealing with Bipolar my entire life. It wasn’t until 2013 that I was diagnosed and this blog is my story. As you’ll see there’s been many lapses in my posting but I’m going to try and get back with it. I’ve had a lot of trouble during my lapses but I continue to remain optimistic about my bipolar hence the title Optimistic Bipolar.
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