"This Week So Far"

This week started out pretty good for me.  I have been taking all my medications like I should be and am feeling better than I was.  The last month I've been masking the way I feel from everyone and I feel like I was in a crisis situation that maybe I should have made a trip to the hospital.  I wasn't taking my medications right, I felt very suicidal, and I was very emotional.  I did happen to lose 10 pounds which is great because of all the weight I've put on.  I just have about 150 pounds to go.

Anyway, back to this week.  I went to my primary care doctor to follow up with him about the stress test I had done two weeks ago and my diabetes.  He said my stress test looked pretty good and that I should start to really work out to lose weight and keep my diabetes in check.  After going through all that he said he wanted to get blood from me since I had fasted and  that he wanted to see me back in three weeks.  Well, I see a third second year resident and everything he does has to go through his
superior.  After about ten minutes of waiting for the nurse to come back in and get my blood the doctor came back in said he needed to talk to me before I left.  So after the nurse took my blood the doctor came back in and wanted to talk about my stress test.

Apparently when he was going over my chart with his boss she said that even though my stress test came back pretty good she wanted him to cover all bases with and refer me to a Cardiologist.  He said that I have a Mild Anterior Ischemia which may be the cause of all the weight I've gained or there may be a blockage somewhere.  My entire mood changed and I felt defeated again.  I know that everything will probably be OK but it just seems like I can't catch a break.  If it isn't one thing it's always another with me.  While the doctor was talking to me I just sat there and stared at him while I cried on the inside.

So my appointment with the Cardiologist is next week and I'm going to try and keep an open mind about.  I'm not going to do too much reading about it on the internet and just do what I was told to do until my appointment.  The doctor put me on a baby aspirin, Statin, and instructed me to limit my physical activity until further notice.