For the last three weeks I've had Bronchitis pretty bad. I try to sleep lying down at night but feel like I'm drowning so I've been sleeping sitting up which isn't much better but at least I don't feel as if I'm drowning and can kind of catch my breathe. I've been coughing so much that my throat is red and I cough up a lot of blood. Before any of you say that I should contact my doctor I have had an exam and is aware of the problems I've been having and I have an appointment to see him next week.
The problem I'm having is that I've been taking over the counter cough medicine which has Acetaminophen in it which I read can cause a persons lithium level to rise to toxic levels. So I flipped a coin and decided to stop my lithium and take the cough medicine which also helps me sleep. Furthermore, I've also not been taking my thyroid or blood pressure medicine as I should the last week. Additionally, I've been tapering off of klonopin for the last three months and the past week I've been taking more of it than I'm supposed to.
I've just had so many health related things going on that I've been a mental breakdown waiting to happen. I've had bronchitis for a month, I've slept sitting up for over month so that I can breath, I had to undergo a stress test because of an abnormal EKG, I've been told that if I don't lose weight I will be on the needle as my doctor put it, and I've just felt absent minded.
I had to cancel my last therapy appointment because I was just too sick to go and I wish that I would have went anyway. The last therapy session I vowed to keep a daily journal of calories I was consuming, minutes of exercise I was doing, amount of water I was taking in, and my daily pill compliance. I was also going to keep track of my moods on this track. The whole idea was for me to take this chart to my therapist so she could look at it and help to keep me on track. Tomorrow is Monday and I want to start fresh and get back on the bus. I'm scared that if I don't find my way back to the bus now I may never find my way.
I’m a 46 year old man who’s been dealing with Bipolar my entire life. It wasn’t until 2013 that I was diagnosed and this blog is my story. As you’ll see there’s been many lapses in my posting but I’m going to try and get back with it. I’ve had a lot of trouble during my lapses but I continue to remain optimistic about my bipolar hence the title Optimistic Bipolar.
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