First off, I live with my Mom in the same house I grew up in. Well, my sister and husband decided they needed a puppy for their two children age 5 and 10. They also thought my Mom needed one as well. So when they went to pick up the puppies the breeder had the last puppy in the litter who was supposed to be going to another person. This person apparently never showed up and of course my crazy in love sister bought the last puppy as well. I think it was all a lie to guilt my sister into buying the last puppy. So there are now three puppies.
Now, my nephew and niece and their two puppies come to my Mom's house everyday. The puppies aren't housebroken and my sister wants everything her way. My Mom and I were on the same page as to how the puppy would be trained and fed. Well, that's all changed.
We were going to train the puppy to use a litter box on our screened in porch. We decided this because of the many red tailed hawks we have in our yard and the very small size of the Chiweenie puppy who weighs 2lbs and 2oz. I've witnessed a hawk swoop down grab a full sized squirrel smother it and carry it off.
Well my sister said everything would be ok and that the kids will take their dogs out in the yard. Because of this my Mom is taking her dog into the yard as well. They won't know what hit them if a hawk swoops down and grabs one of the puppies which each weighs around 2lbs. It would be very traumatic for everyone
So I'm trying to not get attached to my Mom's puppy. It's just one more thing to add to the list of things I have anxiety about. I've lived in the same house for my entire life and dread the day when I'm going to have to move out since there's more owed on the house than it's value. The house payment is more than I get from SS every month. My sister would also take the dog to her house.
I want my Mom to live forever but none of us will. I feel like I'm being selfish but I'm just trying to prepare for the future so that I'll be able to cope when my Mom passes away unless I pass away first. It's going to be so hard to leave the only home I've ever known and now there's a puppy involved. I know I'm going to bond with him and with a life span of around 16 years old and my Mom being 74 there's a good chance he'll outlive her. It would be devastating to lose my Mom, life long home, and a dog all at once. There would be nothing left in my life.
Well, I don't want pity from anyone. I just wish that people would think about how their actions effect others. I was diagnosed with Bipolar over eight years ago and my family still treats me like I'm just a drama queen. It's very frustrating. I've been having mixed episodes for the last five months making everything worse. I could try another medication but the doctor says I'm treatment resistant. Anyway, I wish people in general could show a little more compassion and empathy for those with a disability or mental illness.
Switch shoes with a friend or family member for a day and see how they fit and wear.
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