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2013
March 2013 – Present
- I have binged and purged 15 to twenty times the last three months.
- I envision myself a hundred pounds lighter and able to have sex with anybody I want anytime I choose.
- I have no interest in anything that I used to enjoy doing (bike riding, hiking, photography, genealogy, gardening).
- I get very jumpy when driving and have had to pull over before because my heart feels like it’s going to pop out of my chest.
- I have a lot of anxiety and it elevates over voices, sounds, noises, television.
- I have been very hypersexual and looking at porn on my computer several times per day.
- All I can think about is sex sometimes.
- Again, I have been very interested in hooking up with only guys and have posted ads on craigslist looking for discreet hookups.
- I usually end up posting an ad and then staying up all night checking my email ready to leave the house at a moment’s notice.
- Something takes over in my mind and I just want what I want and if I don’t get it I will crash into a depressive angry state until I have my next hi period and do it all over again.
- All I can think about is the pleasure I will experience and it makes me want that feeling even more.
- When I’m hypersexual my sleep changes to me staying up all night sometimes for days at a time putting singles ads on craigslist and looking at porn.
- When I’m depressed all I want to do is sleep for 14 to 16 hours at a time.
- I always feel stressed and very anxious.
- I much prefer the quiet because certain noises cause me anxiety
- I have no hope for my future.
- I think about death a lot and how mine might play out.
- I have a hard time bathing, brushing my teeth, and shaving on a regular basis.
- I am on edge all the time and will snap at a moment’s notice.
- I got upset with my little three year old niece in April 2013 picked her up, shook her, yelled in her face, and tossed her on the couch.
- I have been on a mission to lead a healthier lifestyle and have lost 35 pounds since February.
- I have angry outbursts where I say horrible things about others and those around me see it as very funny.
- The worst part about these angry outbursts is that I can’t stop once I start and the harder people laugh at me the angrier I get.
